Scar Tissue

I didn't know 

You could affect me like this.

I hadn't realised 

How deep you'd gotten under my skin.

It wasn't til I took a closer look

At the places I'd been,

That I got the real picture

Of the damage within.

I've had time to heal 

From the havoc, burns and breakings

But deep inside there's still a dull aching

That I cannot reach

And it's taking all I've got to stop myself shaking

From the chills that I feel 

At the memory of you

Buried deep underneath

Layers of scar tissue.

Once you were out of my life,

I simply moved on.

I never thought about you.

Not even once.

But for some reason lately,

You've been on my mind;

I can't seem to shut you out.

Believe me, 

I've tried.

I tell myself over and over again

There's no need,

No need at all for me to dwell

On stuff that happened way back when.

But it isn't that simple

And I cried

When I understood how much it's affected my life.

I took it for granted 

When my wounds disappeared,

That all was forgiven,

I had nothing to fear,

The past was behind me,

The future was here.

But it was just this scar tissue

Numbing me at the point where

There was a major issue

And I couldn't see clear.

Now I see for myself

How much I surrendered 

Through ignorance of my health,

How all of the pain that I had disguised

Had me running on fumes.

Fumes made from lies

That created a spectre like a monstrous tower

That loomed high above me 

In whose shadow I cowered.

Now I've found the courage

To reclaim my power.

Now I won't let you daunt me

No matter how much you glower.

 Now I have the remedy 

That truth brought home to me:

Love and forgiveness

Have healed me fully.

Now the hurt and the pain 

Are gone finally.

And the marks on my flesh,

Those dark, ugly scars

They are bookmarks of lessons learnt

And now, that's all they are.

NWO

 

Something's coming,

Can you feel it?

Something's coming 

And you can't escape it.

Something's coming

So get ready.

You either fight it

Or you embrace it.

Let go of what you knew before,

All those old things, they are no more.

The latter will replace the former

Best get ready

It's a new world order.

So whatcha gon' do?

Which side will you choose?

Cause either way you lose- 

Resistance brings its own dark cloud;

You sell your soul if you bow down.

But no matter what they say,

This street only runs two ways:

You either rise or else you fall

And this time you can't have it all.

Surrendering

It's not about the battle,

It's about the victory. 

It's not the destination,

It's about what you gain from the journey.

It's not about the money,

It's about the value of your soul;

It's not the diploma

It's about the experiences that help you grow.

It's not about the struggles,

It's the rewards they bring.

It's not about all the noise they make,

It's about the message in the words they sing.

It's not about the things you hear

From the voices that whisper in your ear,

It's about the truth taking root like a plant

Sprouting from the seed God sowed deep in your heart.

It's not about the circumstances,

Pay no attention to the things you see.

It's not about where you are today,

What matters is who you choose to be.

My Future Self

First to fear;
Last to run.

Number one talker;
Champion listener.

Mature and wise-
An immaculate child.

Always tactful;
Ever truthful.

Strong and brave;
Weak enough to admit wrong.

Flexible and understanding;
Principled and firm in resolve.

Confident in who he is;
Meek and unassuming in manner.

Able to seek advice;
Capable of standing in his own counsel.

Rooted deeply in the Word;
Free from superstition.

Such qualities attract me to others
And draw from me mingled envy and admiration.
These I strive daily to cultivate,
In order to become
The man,
The friend,
The brother,
The son
And, one day, the father
I was put on this earth to be.