Slashed & Burned

Ruin and ash

Fires burning low

Treasure to trash

Where do I go?

My old world has ended

I screamed as it burned

My soul's resurrected

To ground zero returned.

Trying to figure out

Where I fit in

I sink into the ground;

Stop control-less spinning.

Others are gone

Yet still I remain

A small, fragile one

So I begin again.

Face to the night

Eyes open wide

Hoping this time

I'm on the right side.

Lost & Found

You used to say

You'd be the one to fix me.

Never took you for a creeper.

Never thought you'd be the one

To make the wound much deeper.

And I tried to make you 

Into something

You were never meant to be.

That's over now.

The lie's broken down.

And now

I'm standing in the lost and found.

I used to think 

I was strong enough

To never leave your side

But time's the measure

And he knew better

And somehow it seems I lied.

And I tried to make me

Into something

I was never meant to be

But that's over now.

That lie's broken down.

I look around 

And see that somehow

I'm right back

In the lost and found.

Aftermath

My lover's gone,

Left me sad and forlorn.

My lover's gone,

Need to get up and move on.

My lover's gone,

Friends don't get why I'm still torn.

My lover's gone,

Taking the time to grieve and mourn.

My lover's gone,

Hurt to face so much cold scorn.

My lover's gone,

The pain has raged but has not won.

My lover's gone,

The night's been long, now comes the dawn.

My lover's gone,

It's for the best.

I know I can be happy with someone else.

Fragments

 

Perfect strangers

Huddled at the bus stop

In the pouring rain,

United in an instant

By a cigarette stick

Sharing a moment of release

And a mutual need for a nicotine hit…

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People scare me.

Standing in the shower,

I can let my voice ring out-

Just open my mouth

And sing.

But in company,

It’s quite another thing:

My blood turns cold

And I feel myself freeze.

Terror petrified,

I can barely breathe

Much less utter a single word

If I get even an inkling

That I might be observed.

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You know just what I’m thinking,

Even when the words become obstacles

And get in the way.

In times of need,

You always know the right thing to say.

I never have to explain my feelings

Because you feel them too

And I never fear your judgement

‘Cause you understand the things I go through.

In the dark I am never alone

Because you have a way of making

The scariest of places

Feel comfortable like home.

Even when I can’t feel you,

I know I’ll be just fine

‘Cause our connection holds true

Across oceans and time.

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There are many things

That I don’t know:

Like how far away the sun is,

Or what makes flowers grow.

And when you think it over,

There are many reasons you could come to

As to just why I am not

The perfect one for you…

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…But how do you end a chapter,

Turn the page

And shut the door

On one whose role

Is central to the story?

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My brain feels raped.

I feel the shame

Of a fall from grace.

A hopeless case,

My jumbled words spill out all over the place…

A babbling brook,

An insipid book,

Sitting alone in a tight, cramped nook

Trying to communicate with just a look.

Fatigue of the mind

For quite some time

Searched far and wide

Only to find

The legends had lied

About the treasures people hide

And at the end of the rainbow,

There was no grand prize.