Unconscious Uncoupling

So close

We were the closest

Of friends

We were the bestest

Of loves

Ours was the greatest

Of falls

This was the hardest.

Your eyes told stories

Far beyond words

Never had to explain things

Emotions were heard

I could always tell what you were feeling

Like your own personal

Human mood ring

And you never had to ask

"Well what do you think?"

Cause we were in tune

On a wave and in sync.

Many times I've heard it said

That all good things

One day come to an end.

So then what about the bad?

What message does that send?

Kinda makes me second guess

The meaning of "friend".

Something's broken

Or else something's grown

And for some reason or other

We don't fit anymo'.

It just happened so quick though

Quicker even than I could follow.

This truly is a hard pill to swallow.
Guess you can never predict
How the wind's gonna blow,

Just like that, overnight,
you've become

A person that I used to know.

Face Off

I've been afraid of you.

Never wanted to admit it

Cause I thought it made me weak.

But I'm afraid of you.

I've been terrified of you.

The look in your eye, 

The edge in your voice,

The way you hold yourself,

It all terrifies me.

I am scared witless by you.

You drain my confidence

Have me second-guessing every decision,

Every step,

Babbling, rambling, losing my cool,

Losing my control.

I have feared you for so long.

Forever it seems.

But it's a problem.

And the status quo 

Isn't always the way to go.

Fear has run its course.

I need to face you,

And face you I shall.

I might tremble a little,

I might be tempted to pee a little

But I'll come out of it strong.

Wild Side

It's a beautiful day 

To take a walk on the wild side.

What a day,

A lovely day

To take a walk on the wild side.

I didn't know I could feel this way,

Throw all my worries and concerns away.

I had no idea I could feel this way,
Shelf the drama and go out and play.

It's such a glorious day

And I'm walking on the wild side.

Are you feeling like 

You've missed your last chance?

Are you thinking about 

All the stuff in your past?

Forget your blues, 

Pump the electro 

And dance.

It's such a glorious day

For you to step out

And take a walk 

On the wild side.

Don't be afraid.

Today's the day

To start walking on the wild side.

Fantasy Finale

I used to watch you

From a distance

And wish I could 

Summon up the courage

To tell you that I would

Like to take you out

On a coffee date,

Or a long walk

Where we'd talk 

Until daybreak.

But no matter how hard I tried

To draw your attention

You never seemed to notice me,

Never gave me any mention.

I tried all kinds of strategies

To get you off my mind,

Short of going down to the local  pub

And drinking myself blind.

To no avail.

I couldn't keep my thoughts 

From straying back to you.

No matter what I said, or where I went 

Or what I tried to do,

I couldn't change the fact 

That what it always came down to

Was me wanting to love 

And be loved by you.

Today I've finally managed

To gather up my strength

At last I have discovered

The way to break your spell.
And for my emotional health

I learned how to cut off this obsession

Without betraying myself.

Today, I choose to let you go

Though you never asked a thing of me.

Today, I choose to give you up

With no hate or animosity.

I choose to leave this thing behind

That demands so much energy.
And take the time 
To occupy my life with things of necessity

These choices let me free myself 
From all this useless pain.

So I can learn, and heal and grow...

And, one day, 
Be free to love again.

Overweight

A jaunty saunter,

And saucy swagger

Up to the checkout desk

Belies nagging doubt

About what the scales will read

Under the weight of all my baggage.

It really wasn’t my fault.

You see,

What had happened was

I had so many important things to bring along:

My knowledge for starters,

Such wealth as I possess,

Then there was pride and self confidence

(Packed a little extra in my carry-on too),

Oh, and there are those residual hurts

Mementos from obscure episodes in my past,

Of course, I had to make space for complacency and doubt,

My talent, my ingenuity,

Self pity, helpless feelings and anxieties-

No way I could leave those behind!

So I bussed it,

Hoofed it,

Hobbled and taxied

All the way here

And now my bags are starting to tell:

There are some broken straps and handles,

Not to mention a couple of busted zippers

But dammit I made it!

But passing through

the million and one security checks along the way,

(Damn those bloody terrorists!)

I find I’m forced to sort through my affairs

And leave little odds and ends behind:

A mask here,

A worn out excuse there,

Old padding and protections,

Scarves and coats I’d taken as a precaution

But most likely won’t need at my destination.

Still,

Even after all these checks

My bags are still so loaded

I can barely drag them along.

I fear that between check-in

And the remaining security stations,

I’ll have no choice

But to cast more and more stuff aside,

So that by the time I reach the gate for boarding

They’ll have me stripped down to nothing

But the bare essentials

Cause this airline don’t give you no allowance for overweight.

Hypothetically Speaking

What if I stopped trying to hide

And simply let go of my folly and pride?

What if today were the day

I gave up on the games

And stopped being so preoccupied with issues of shame?

What if I stopped trying so hard

And simply let go and let God?

What if today were the day

All your dreams came true?

Would it be worth all the things you had to go through?

What if you found out

You only had hours to live,

Would you still be proud of all the things you did?

What if you lost the thing

You've been holding on to with all your might,

Would you still have the courage to plod on and fight?

What if after all the years 

Of being adamant and headstrong,

We suddenly woke up to find we were wrong?

What if we gave our best

Even when the way got rough,

And found that our best was not good enough?

What if we had all the answers,

Would we still have questions?

And if we had no questions,

Could we still learn life's lessons?

What if we abandoned all lies

And lived only for truth

Would we be humble enough 

To accept the truth about me and you?

What if we stopped being enemies

And tried to be friends

Would the time we had left suffice to make full amends?

What if you were me and I were you

Do you think we each could walk a whole mile in the other's shoe?