I Win

I was in the dark

But I couldn't see it.

I didn't know what light was.

How then could I miss it?

That was how you found me

Way back when-

A tiny, wounded, frightened thing

In desperate need of a friend.

You were like a ray of light

When you came into my life.

You were to me an angel

Though I didn't think to ask what kind.

You opened up a world to me

I still cannot describe

But that was just the outer coat,

The inside was much more vile.

Beneath the sweet exterior

Was a filling of abuse and lies,

Manipulation mixed with laughter

And copious creamy smiles.

People ask me why I stayed;

Think I'd surrendered my mind

To a beautiful angel

But not the benevolent kind.

So now you've come around again

Expecting I'd let you in.

Arrogance was always your Achilles heel

And this time around,

I.

Win.

After the Storm

Everybody talks about

How they want a love that's strong,

Then there was you

And I knew I'd found the one.

We were so good together

Whether we were making plans,
Laughing or talking about the weather.

Yours was a love I never wanted to end

But in life you never know

What's waiting round the next bend.

Our story's over;

You sleep in clover

Beneath the smiling sun.

In some way,

I think I had to pay

For having known so much perfection.

So while you feed the flowers,

I while away the hours

In self contempt.

As I gaze up at the moon, 

I feel certain that soon

The pain will all be spent;

The light will fill the space

Where in solitude I've dwelt

And prove that thing to be true
Which I have always felt:

That in getting to know you
 I have been bountifully blessed.

Weathering

 

This morning I thought

I'd broken even;

That the dark cloud above me 

Was finally leavin'.

This morning I woke

With the light of hope;

Turns out that I might have misspoke:

The patch of blue sky that appeared

Making me think I was in the clear,

Got swallowed up like so much wine

And the lightning's playing hopscotch on the skyline.

So I guess this storm isn't over just yet;

I'm not sure how much worse it'll get

But I'm getting tired of resisting 

So I cry out just in case You're listening.

In the face of this fury, I hunker down

And I grit my teeth but how the wind howls!