Welcome Destruction

You saw them coming

I didn't.

The doubts

Like rain clouds in the distance.

You took precautions

I couldn't.

I never felt the danger.

I never heard it

The sudden intake of breath

That speaks of dread

Of tenseness.

Thinking back now,

How could I have missed it?

All that agst and the restlessness?

The downpour was sudden

Fierce and relentless.

The wind launched its assault

Determined and tireless

While my house shook and rattled

Defenseless.

I crouched and I cowered.

My voice died as I hollared.

But safe in your bunker

You couldn't be bothered.

I came through the waters

And the treacherous eye.

Shaken and weak

And somehow alive.

You saw them coming.

I never did.

The stormclouds in the distance

That washed our world clean.

Now as I stand here,

They recede.

Now I stand here

Watching you leave.

Now I remain

Alone to grieve.

Now as I settle in

And start to rebuild

It's odd that instead of sadness,

What I find is relief.  

Catch-32

The blank page:
Fear of beginnings,
Fear of the unknown.
The last full-stop:
Fear of endings,
Fear of growing old.

Holding Pattern

We've been here before.

I recognise the landscape.

In 72 hours

How much could've changed?

But this isn't our first time

Circling this particular drain,

So  tell me why the hell

We'd want to try it again?

And yet, 

It's the same old refrain

On an infinite loop

I just can't seem to escape/break free from

The gravity around you.

Leaf in the Wind

I have no anchor.

I'm a leaf in the wind.

Unexpected.

That's what this is.

Cold turkey

And the shakes are setting in

It's a punch to the stomach

That's knocked out my wind

It's a knife in the gut

And I'm all but done in

Didn't build my world around you

You weren't my everything

Still I can't pretend it didn't matter

I feel my head begin to spin

I never saw it coming.

I never saw a thing.

I'm adrift without an anchor.

I'm a leaf in the wind.

Adrift without an anchor.

A leaf in the wind.

Slashed & Burned

Ruin and ash

Fires burning low

Treasure to trash

Where do I go?

My old world has ended

I screamed as it burned

My soul's resurrected

To ground zero returned.

Trying to figure out

Where I fit in

I sink into the ground;

Stop control-less spinning.

Others are gone

Yet still I remain

A small, fragile one

So I begin again.

Face to the night

Eyes open wide

Hoping this time

I'm on the right side.

Infiltrated

So you think you know it all.

You think you're safe.

You think your precautions

Are all that it will take

To keep you protected

And away from harm.

You put stock in technology

And cutting edge alarms.

Well,

You might have been right

But for all your strategizing

You forgot one thing,

That crucial element

You should've factored in.

You're smart and resourceful

But your adversary is more cunning still.

With honey on his tongue and jewel encrusted smile

He slowly took you in

And so you hesitated

When you should have made the kill.

And he laid low

For a hot minute or so

While you rested on the laurels

Of victories won long ago.

And so it happened

That while you slept,

He pressed the advantage

And silently crept

Through all your proud defenses,

Your walls and your electric fences.

All your hi-tech sensors have been undermined

Along with systems for early warning

And you have been kept blind.

But even now you cannot see

That it's too late

For, you see the enemy

Already stands within your gates.

Penitence

 He was once.

He was kind.

I know he was.

He was attentive

And knew how to love.

He was gentle,

A porcelaine doll.

He was strong

Never thought he'd ever fall.

He was a dreamer,

A beautiful mind.

He was a warrior 

With the soul of a child.

He wasn't perfect

But he gave me hope.

He gave me life 

With the words he spoke.

That's what he was.

Now he is lost.

Now he is broken

And I think it's my fault.